4 posts tagged “ex”

Last night in Chicago was the big "Let's hit 15 different bars and drink ourselves stupid on Guinness and Jameson shots celebrating an Irish saint even though I'm Polish" drunk fest - otherwise known as St. Patrick's Day celebrations. Also known as "I will die if I don't get 200 strands of green beads or anything blinking green so I need to drink my ass of to get them" Day. And of course, we had our big parade and the traditional dyeing green of the Chicago River. Very cool. I am tired and hung over today but not as bad as I thought. I started late yesterday - around 7:00 p.m. Part of that had to do with a hang over from the mass quantities of alcoholic beverages consumed on Friday night. (I love tequila, but why does it not love me????!!!!!) Most people start around 10:00 a.m. or so before the parade (yes - 10:00 a.m.), so by the time 7:00 p.m. comes around they are beyond obliterated.

I spent the the night hanging with my ex, Richard, and three of his friends. Before he was buzzin he made a few revelations to me:

- he's still in love with me (WOW!!!!)

- he still has hope that we will get married (HUGE WOW!!!!! Big difference from when he dumped me and said he didn't want to marry me - after lots of talks we ironed this issue out a bit and pared it down)

- he is planning activities for us months out (Cubs games during the summer, me joining him and his best friend in Cozumel on a dive trip their taking in June, a ski trip to his aunt and uncle's place in Colorado in December, The Police concert in May, etc., etc.)

What does one do? Sit here in a bit of disbelief of course, but start to thaw the icy exterior a bit more. He's starting to show that he's not hanging out to get the easy lay and may actually want to get back together. I will definitely start to give in a bit more, and find that I actually want to do things for him. The last year we were dating I tuned myself out big time. Had no desire to do anything to keep/impress him. I was blah. Now, I want to be active in fostering a relationship. Maybe the heartbreak and time apart can do us some good. Maybe?

You ask: Do you want to get back together with him? Answer: (after a pregnant pause) I think so. Yes.

Now, if I could just get that job............

I am royally fucked. I’m friends with a few of my exes (but most definitely not my recent one – at this point I have declared myself officially over him – about fucking time). They’re great guys, but all taken. Damn. Anyway, two of them are in Texas, and one of them here in Chicago. I would kill to switch that around and send Chicago ex to Siberia. We reconnected after my recent breakup and all was well for a while. There will always be a part of me that loves him because it happens that way when you’ve invested yourself so strongly in a relationship. However. BIG However. He’s started to get emotionally invested again and wants to see me. I’ve been blowing this off because I really am not ready for an encounter with him. It’s going to be too stressful and he’s going to try something. Hints have already been dropped, even though he’s been dating someone for 6 or 7 yrs. And it’s not like I could tap it once and book. With him that would be the worse thing to do because it would open the flood gates. Dating him again is way out of the question. There’s a reason I left him, and they’re still very clear. I wonder how long I can blow him off?

It's Thanksgiving weekend. One of the biggest party weekends of the year. All I wanna do is molt into my couch in my pajamas all weekend, sip cold beer, eat between naps, and watch March of the Penguins on the Discovery Channel along with selections from my bad DVD collection. Sad. I should be out there. Somewhere. Especially trying to meet people. I am just not feeling the whole extensive hair and make-up deal. Thus, I have chosen to molt. Hopefully the next crappy holiday month of December will keep my mind busy with a blur of alcohol-fueld Xmas parties.

No - I am decidedly NOT looking forward to the holidays. They pretty much blow this year. I barely made it through Thaksgiving intact, even though it was a good day with friends. At least I'll save a couple hundred bucks on Xmas presents I would've bought the ex, right? In one sense. Instead of Xmas presents that cash will go towards my payments and insurance on my new car. It's a fairly even trade. Bah humbug. Please pass the eggnog!

Just in time for the holidays folks, I offer up a link to the article on today's MSNBC.com site.

We all need a little good tiddings, don't we??!! And just when I have a few I was going to dial up. Really. Ok, no not really. Sure. Can someone pass the eggnog??!

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21757204/